another random train of thoughts.. it is seriously true that as i got older, i tend to think a lot.. like more and more.. and it seems that its becoming harder and harder to be the once happy-go-lucky person... guess i am not now.. which is why the past tense is there. there are more things to worry which i used to neglect or cast aside and not worry so much abt them.. mayb tats why the things snowballed into a bigger thing now?? seriously i envy thse who are realli happy-go-lucky kind like lin lao shi and banana... very gd examples.. they don seem to be brought down by problems easily and you w be influenced by their optimistism when u see them smiling all day long... how i wish i can be like that too.. trying hard to be one..

still thinking abt the behavior of two people today... they don usually behave lk this... it is bcoz of how i behave towards them tats why i get my taste of medicine? if its realli so, i will try to change k? but one of them jus pissed me off today. again. seriously i donno wats the problem.. i jus cant stand the words he say and i believe he can feel tat strongly. =x quite agitated when speaking to him.. trying to control. but everytime i speak to him, my blood pressure jus rise very fast..

ok now to clarify or update things that gg on for my attachment... keep telling pp that i am slacking.. but actualli, tats not very true. its not true bcoz there's seriously a lot to do and i am very worried i cant finish my stuffs by the end of my attachment. although i try to work fast, i get super sick of doing my work and cant help by slacking for the past 2 wks. slacking in the sense that i took more breaks and chat with another intern. this mayb bcoz there's too much work and i don lk the stress being put on me.. then that my form of escapement.. hope my supervisor wont be disappointed with my performance.. realli wanna live up to theirs and my expectation.. and i wanna score my A!

one of my job scope is to carry out blending and well... have to go down to the shopfloor a lot of times to ask the technicians to help and show us how they do it. then have to note the tools and mat used. tats not very easy ok... u have to redo and redo and redo and redo till u are very sure that there's no prob in future for first article inspection. have to be done correctly, while meeting plenty of requirements, the technicians may not be free all the time to be there to help u... the booth may not be available.. the trying out of the process again if things are not properly done.. so lots of time will be spent on the shopfloor... the guy wu pissed me off with his words is one of the intern working in mat department. frm the way he say things, he is implying that we are very free to go down to the shopfloor everytime... but he don even know wat is gg on and wat makes him think this way??!! i don lk pp to be assuming when they are not even sure of the suituation tat's gg on. he keeps thinking that we have nth to do lo.. but seriously, i have a lot to do la.. and he simply refuse to believe it.

everyone has been misunderstood before and we understand tat feeling sucks. however sometimes when i am being misunderstood, i don bother to clarify with tat person.. i jus feel tat i don care if u misunderstand me.. coz in future if u find that u have misunderstand me, u w know it or regret it. tats how i feel. another thing which is very true abt me is:"There are times when you feel like you're wearing a mask, but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it." haha... so no one knows me well!! hahah.. tats why if i can find a person who knows me very well, i w feel astonish and happy. =p hope to find tat person soon..

listening to this song jus now and the lyrics are quite inspiring.

梦境二
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