finally i have seen some light on my path, although the road ahead is still not very clear. many and great thanks to mirza and ben for the advice given today, much appreciated. also thks to rowin who shed some light on me.. gonna be a brand new me starting tmr in terms of my attitude.. hopefully i can do it.. not very impressed with someone's behavior today though.. its ok if u did not contribute, but stop thse head shaking of urs and the sacarstic words as this make me feel worse and that is not cool. chong man shi lou... pls speak up to me if u have anything against me.. though the truth may hurt, its better than keeping ur thoughts to urself and present thse behavior towards me..